Y'all, this isn't a competition down her on earth. We don't need to compete with people. If I get something new, you don't have to just to show everyone you got something too.
If I have good things happen, you do not need to try and one up me with your old thing or, that fabricated new thing.
One thing I will not do is act like I am God Fearing and not really be. I have more faith than these so called prayer warriors some of you rely on. That is a fact. I have lost my child. I have sat back and watched how certain people constantly try and out do me and you know what, its not flattering at all. It is sad, sad, sad.
A tragedy is not the loss of an object or making it out of something "almost”. NO, it is an untimely death because of something that we couldn't stop. Almost only counts in horseshoes and handgrenades, trust me.
In February of 2018 I hit 2 deer going the speed limit on 61 south and could've sworn I hit a 400lb person but, I survived. I walked away. The deer, well one made it the other is in deer heaven. That wasn't a tragedy. Apparently god thought my windows were too dark. (I had the darkest tint ever on that car).
In January of 1992, I survived a car wreck. A wreck that should have killed the two people in the front seat. I got a lawsuit by a sorry ass girl who has had karma slap her in the face so many times I lost count. Thats what happens to people that think money is all we need. I realized that my best friend at the time had an awesome family because, her mom made sure I got to the hospital. I had the best doctors and the best care ever, by my parents and a wonderful company nurse that was as much a grandma to me as my others were. That wasn't a tragedy. That was a lesson in why you dont let your friends drive your car.
In May of 2015, Lezlie was driving me from BA to Vicksburg and jamming. She had "turn down for what" on and she definitely turned down for what the steering wheel and we landed in the other lane going the right way. We made it and God made sure someone stopped to be sure we were okay. She did not drive for about a month and got over that. That wasn't a tragedy. That was a lesson learned on why you should never listen to jamming songs while driving.
A tragedy is something I lost my baby girl too. Not something that almost happened. It happened.
I write this blog to let others know that grief is real but so are emotions. Anger, hatred, sadness, love, hurt, you name it. I have sat back over the past few months and realized I am so sick of this life competition certain people want to be in.
Remember this, I WIN EVERYTIME. Why, my faith isnt faltering and I am not trying to compete with anyone other than who I was yesterday. BET!
God has me. That is all that matters, ever.
Numbers 12:9 "And the anger of Jehovah was kindled against them; and he departed."
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