Some say there are 5 stages of grief. Some say their are 7. I read a book that said 10. One thing I do know is this, anger is one stage you may continuously go back and forth through.
But action, action should be the final stage. Not acceptance. We can say we accept anything but how we act following probably would prove the accepting part.
For instance. Lezlie was loving. She was kind. There wasn't a stranger she didn't meet. So maybe, the actions I should focus on are being kind, loving and helping others.
But, lets talk about Anger. Anger should be a state, not a stage. It is the second "stage" in the grieving process.
After all the denial, confusion, etc set in, anger shows its head. I have been in and out of anger many times. I have let anger rear its ugly head many times. Many have seen this anger also.
Experiencing the loss of a child can definitely bring out anger. I have wanted to punch walls, people, etc. I have let anger take over and I have pushed people away, some needed to be and, the ones that didn't are still with me. Friends will be covered later.
I have found that writing helps me when I get angry. I can channel the anger and make it a positive. Before, I would shut down and let it build up.
But, anger is normal. I have been angry at God many times. I have also found that through this anger, I have came closer to God. Which is definitely a good thing.
Anger is normal. It is something you will find you will revisit and, that is okay. Just remember that God has you and he knows your heart.
Mark 11:22 "And Jesus answering said unto them, have faith in God...."
Thank you for your transparency and willingness to share your journey of grief with us all. You are one of the strongest women I know, and I am so blessed to have you as a friend.