I have had people ask what's the worse type of grief.
I do not think any is worse, they all are.
Imagine being that person that loses a child. You try and try to smile, do life like you normally would but, when you get to the point that you cannot handle all the junk that happens with some of it, you feel like quitting. You cannot. You have to choose what to quit.
So you do not quit life. You quit whatever is helping make the healing slower or is affecting the part of life where you live.
What is the point of healing if you cannot be happy. What is the point of grieving if at the end of the day you think, I just need to quit life. It sucks. I am not happy. This is not what I planned. But, you cannot quit life. Its a cop out. Especially if you raised your child to never quit. So, you stop doing whatever it is that makes you feel this way.
But, people do not understand. They get mad. They get how they feel but, they won't get how you feel. What is worse, they will say they are mad or upset but, they do not know how you feel. Grief plan outright sucks. Its the worst feeling but, the only person that understands this is you.
We do not all grieve the same. What some of us do to cope others may not do and, its okay.
All of it sucks. The whole process. GRIEF is awful but, you know what the say the stronger the love, the harder the grief process is.
People will never understand how we feel regardless. They will never understand why we do certain things because most people think of how they feel never really thinking of how we feel.
Theres no worse type of grief. Its all pretty bad.
Faith is taking the steps and not seeing the whole staircase. It may look like you are going nowhere but, you are.
Proverbs 3:13-15 "Blessed are those who find wisdom, those who gain understanding, for she is more profitable than silver and yields better returns than gold.  She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her."
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