I am not mad...

I am not mad that people make everything in this world about them. You know the type.

I am not mad that they feel they need to tell me they are not mad because I have decided that from this point on, whenever it was, I was going to do what was beneficial for me and my spiritual growth. Everything isn't about you.

From this point on, it is about me. Me and God. Our relationship. Doing what I need to get to where I need to be.

So, do not constantly say you are not mad. It has nothing to do with you and I really cannot say I worry that you are "mad". This has everything to do with me.

I am not mad that life has taken this crazy turn but, I do want to say that there are times I am mad as hell that God took my child. I am mad, mad, mad.

But, I am not mad that people do not understand that sometimes, making yourself better requires a lot of things to change, no I am not.

I am not even upset anymore that people make life all about them. Sometimes, you grow up and you realize that hey, God has a way of getting you through the storm and you know what, sometimes it's scary. Sometimes, sometimes, things happen that make you so upset and confused you almost lose what faith you have. Sometimes, you feel that your world is over but, he will see you through the storm.

But, I am not mad. I am not mad people feel they need to say they aren't mad. Why, because God has me and is showing me the way and that's what matters.

God has me, if no one else does that at the end of the day I will still be okay.

Hebrews 12:2 "Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith' who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."