You know the first thing you want to do is bargain. I'll do this if you give me my child back. I will be a better person. I will give more to help. I will love them more. I would sell my soul to the devil....
I wouldn't.
I wouldn't give up eternity for a few more years. As much as I miss her, it would not be worth it.
I would love 5 more minutes, hours, days, years but, I am not giving up eternity.
I have been mad and angry and sad and yes, I want her back. But, my soul is mine and it belongs with her in Heaven.
I don't think people understand the context of that statement. Why give up your eternity for a few more days on earth. I hear people say I would trade places in a minute but, we can't just do that and I don't know if that would affect our eternity or not. If not, heck yeah I would do it. She was 15, she had a lot of living left to do.
We bargain. Its part of the grieving process. But, so is acceptance and I promise I won't accept anytime soon. But bargain, we are all guilty of it. I am sure I thought I would give my soul for her but, I wouldn't. As much as I love her I wouldn't.
You see, she is in heaven. Selling myself like that would mean I couldn't get there with her. She would be so mad. I cannot wait to see her and spend eternity with her. Until then, I will take her Dr Pepper stealing, redbird placing, dragon fly flying, little fish sending signs. Why, I love her just that much.
2 Corinthians 5:8 "Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord."
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