Yeah, that’s a a hootie song. Let her cry. Especially if she’s lost a child. Especially if the anniversary is soon.
Emotional roller coaster. That’s how you’d describe the child loss feelings. You never know how you’ll feel.
I have spent the first part of this month mad at the world. Today, I was thankful for urban decay all nighter setting spray. Why? I heard a song and it wasn’t even a crying one and I cried and cried. I cried some more. Stopped to see Mal. I cried again. Realized I need to change their flowers and looked in the mirror. You couldn’t tell.
I did a complete 360. Now I just want to cry. Tomorrow is the day. The worst day of my life. The beginning of a new normal. An emotional roller coaster.
I pray none of my friends ever experience this and if you do, you aren’t crazy. There’s no normal way to grieve.
I pray tomorrow goes better than I feel right now. And if you see me, just know that it’s indescribable. I will not be okay and I will never get over it.
Psalm 34:17 “When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles.”
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