When people say oh you’re so strong, I’m really not.
I have just learned that I have to live my life the way God wants me too and this new normal. But, it’s an old new normal for me.
I’m not really strong. I honestly feel some days like throwing my hands up and a strong person never thinks of quitting.
I have to make myself get up. I have to make myself go on. Why, you never know who is watching and observing. Strong is a word That I don’t feel I relate to. I don’t want to be called strong because I’ve had to love after the death of a child. I’d rather be strong for another reason.
I want to be strong because I rode the bull for 8 seconds. I want to be strong because I can take out the best MMA fighter. I don’t want it to be related to death. No one does.
I would have never chosen strong to be associated with this,
Just like hero. I don’t want to be anyone’s hero because I M making it and keeping my faith after the death of my child. I remember getting a text when I worked home health from a patient that said I was his hero. Why? I got supplies ordered for him that made it in 36 hrs after no one else could. (trach supplies).
Strong and hero I don’t wNt to be related to death but, I can’t change that people feel that. I just know that it’s a way of life I have had to learn to live and helping others is my nature. Faith is something we all need.
Never give up. You have no idea who is watching,
1 chronicles 16:11 “Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.”
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