Take your own advice...

Have you ever given someone advice and then thought, man I think I need to take that advice.

But, you do not.

That is me too a tee. I can write all day, everyday about what I feel. About things that I think others can do to make this journey much better and you know what, I do not take my own advice.

I still fight with myself every day about this.

I still feel just as bad as I did 11/11/2015 and yet, I can tell anyone and everyone what they need to do to get through this journey, but do none of it myself.

This is a hard road to walk down. It is hard regardless of how many people are with you. I would totally imagine it would be worse being alone but, I do not have that issue.

I have the issue of research, knowing how I feel and then what I think would help and yet, I still do not follow it.

The only thing I have done is keep my Faith. I know for a fact, without a doubt that Lezlie is in Heaven. It is a place that one day I will be and all this that I feel, I will not feel anymore.

Death of a child is a sting that we never recover from. It does not matter if they are 1 or 100, it is still your child.

My goal is to do more of what I type. Today is Day 2 of this leap year, a year that will be hard just like any other. I will go through Feb 28 and 29 and feel just as much emotion as imaginable but, I can do it.

I will take my own advice and see how this year turns out. This is just the beginning of 364 more days to help with healing, healing that will never fully come but, a small amount is better than none.

1 Chronicles 16:11 "Seek the Lord and his strength, seek his face continually."