Sometimes, you do not want to do something because you are afraid of the outcome.
Like buying a car, building a house, getting a pet or, changing jobs. No one likes change. But, no one likes regret either.
The one thing that I can say about dealing with the loss of your child is that you can feel so bad and down about anything you do that you think your child might like or want to do or, the fact that you would feel guilty doing something to make yourself happy.
Trust me, it is a feeling I go through quite a bit and you know what, regardless, I probably will always feel this way.
What do people expect? I lost my child when she was 15 years old. 15. She didn't get to go to prom, graduate, go to college, take a senior trip, get a scholarship, get a car, I could go on.
How in the hell do people think you should just move on. Yes, taking a chance to maybe, just maybe smile a little after the tragedy you went through is okay. But, moving on....that will never happen.
So take a chance and make a change if needed. I promise I know I will never do anything without wondering how she would feel but, I also know that she would be mad at me for doing what I did for so long.....NOTHING.
Psalm 61:2 "When my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than 1."
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