How do you do Grief?

Have you ever wondered if how you handle grief is the right way? Well, there is no right way.

Theres just different ways - but lets be sure they aren't things that will hurt you.

How did I do grief? I didn't. I did everything in this world I could not to grieve. I took so many different types of medicine I just existed. Then one day I went to a therapist and you know what, I stopped trying to not grieve.

I went through grief almost two years after losing Lezlie. I went through it like it just happened and today, I do grief by writing this blog. By reaching out to others to let them know they are not alone. I try my best to make others feel that they are okay and pray for them. I also pray they do not do grief like I did. It wasn't healthy. I should've known that but, it was what I felt was right. Even if it wasn't.

Now, I grieve when I need to. I cry at songs, memories, you name it. Lord knows I am a crier. Some may think it is silly to cry and some of things I do but you know what, who cares. I just hope they never lose a child and experience it.

I lost friends. I don't get angry about it anymore because I realize that I really wasn't the one that lost, they are. They are losing out because they didn't take the time to help me and they didn't take the time to realize that under all this grief, I am the person I was before 11/11/2015 but, I am just a little broken. And you know what, its okay that I am.

I lost my faith. I think I realized how much I needed it after July of 2017. Yes, it actually took me that long but, I got it back and I got way more back with it. I have the joy of knowing that one day, I will make it to Heaven and see my sweet girl.

I gained friends. Some that I don't know how I went through the first part of my life without. I work with the best friends anyone could have. I don't hate work because I get to be with my friends. The best friends.

I know that people grieve differently and, I pray they all grieve in a healthy way. I also hope they realize they aren't alone. Not only because there are others out here grieving too but, they have God.

So, there isn't a wrong way to grieve and yes, we all do grief differently. Don't ever feel like you are doing it wrong or that you are alone.

Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”