It can be lying in bed all day.
It can be hearing a song and the tears start falling.
It can be seeing someone from behind that looks like your child and, you realize it isn't and you break down.
It can be sitting graveside all day and even, all night.
It can be waking up in the middle of the night thinking you hear him/her and you don't.
It can be having ziplock bags full of socks, shoes or clothing they wore they day they left you..
It can be finding something such as a pacifier, or a softball bat and the memory comes and you break down.
It can a box of candy you are given that is their favorite and you breakdown.
It is fighting the jealously of seeing children her age enjoying things she (or he) should be doing.
It can be attending a football game of her favorite team and feeling guilty because she isn't there.
It is knowing others walk on eggshells around you afraid they will upset you.
It is talking about her anytime you can and feeling nothing but heartache after.
It is not being able to drive on certain roads because that is place she was last.
It is feeling guilty when you buy your living child something so, you buy something for their gravesite.
It is more than grieving. It is parenting and loss and heartache and memories and longing for what should have been.
It is the worst thing you'll ever experience but you know you'd suffer all over again just for one moment with your child.
Exodus 15:26 "I am the Lord who heals you."
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