So, this afternoon I went to get my tag. It is personalized and you have to sign a form blah, blah, blah. At the end the lady says, I had to override it and explain you've had the personalized tag for a while. Then I may get the tag in the mail if not they aren't approving the personalization. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! I have had this tag for 3 years. I asked well what do I do, she said if they don't you can call them. I said, don't worry they will here from me if they don't approve it. The best believe they won't forget me.
Kind of like no one will never forget Lezlie. EVER! Lezlie was such a sweet, loving, kind person. She had a beautiful soul. She could go from tomboy to girly girl in like 3 seconds. I also know that if you knew her, you loved her.
Tomorrow is going to be a tough day, I know that I am going to try my best to keep busy. But, it is gonna be hard. Why, these past 6 months have been super hard for some reason. Its like it just happened and I am reliving it all over again.
Some days I wake up and don't make any sense of what my purpose is anymore. I don't know. I can't figure it out. It is to help people, if so, who. What people? Are the ones that read this that do relate are they feeling helped? I just don't know.
Some days I want to lay in bed all day. Sleep, cry, do nothing. Exist, sometimes not even that.
But, tomorrow is Lezlie's birthday and tomorrow I will get up, I will not cry, I will go to work, I will celebrate with cake and, by her all the pink flowers she needs and loves. (sarcasm here ).
I want everyone to celebrate with me. Do something in her memory, something nice.
1 John 1:5 "God is light, in him there is no darkness at all."
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